remy-mcnally:

IT BETTER SERIOUSLY. A WORLD WITHOUT LEXIE GREYS MEMORY HURTS. Hahahahaha I know how you feel. Because I basically made Jamie the mother of the freaking asylum. But, hey, we like this stuff, it works.

IT WILL. RELAX. But Jamie’s good at that job though, these kids need someone like that around all the time haha. It does work. 

asylumnursejamie:

Good, because I’d like you to get used to this feeling for like, ever. She definitely is. I’ll call her a little later when I sit down for my paperwork. I know, I know, it’s just.. you know, hard because for so long you guys were my babies, I wanted to keep you guys as close as possible, and now it’s harder to do that. I’m glad you understand, at least.

I think that’s highly possible. Alright, I suppose that means I should prepare myself for her to call sometime this weekend. Yeah, I know. We were your babies, and now you’ve got babies, and it gets hard because you love us all and you’re only human, and yeah, I understand. I can’t I blame you for spending the majority of your time with them though, the little munchkins are pretty cute. 

remy-mcnally:

I KNOW BAILEY IS AND ALWAYS WILL BE ONE OF MY FAVS!! UGH DONT DO IT DNT DO IT. OK THATS A GOOD IDEA SERIOUSLY. REMEMBER WHEN WE WERE ON JAMIE AND JORDAN ALL THE TIME. That’s.. that’s so awkwardly true.. I have a love/hate relationship with her

BAILEY IS JUST AWESOME. I WAS SO PROUD OF HER LAST NIGHT. I JUST DID AND IT HURTS. JORDY GETS AN ACTUAL POST BECAUSE OW THAT HURT MORE THAN IT SHOULD’VE. YES, YES I DO. I just hate her half the time, because she brings me pain, and then half the time I tolerate her because if it wasn’t for her I wouldn’t have my happy feels…and my relationship with Shonda is so confusing sometimes I don’t even understand it. 

asylumnursejamie:

I know, it’s definitely weird, but, you’ll get use to it, I promise. Your mom is probably so proud of you, she can’t contain it. I should call her, I’m sure she’ll be excited to brag about you. But, I want to keep all  of you close.

I wouldn’t mind getting used to this feeling. She is, I think she is. I think she’d like that, I think she’d like that a lot. You will, but right now Lexie and Caitlin are your little babies, they need you to hold them close than we do. You still keep us close, but those two come first. We get it. Or, at least I get it. 

remy-mcnally:

I CANT HANDLE SEASON 10.. SERIOUSLY I CANT. I KNOW THEY BETTER NOT KILL HIM BECAUSE SHIT RICHARD WEBER IS MY MAN. IM SORRY BUT I WENT ON LEXIES TAG AND IT WAS THERE.. You did, you lived. Seriously, if we can all live through Grey’s, we are invincible.

I SAID THAT ABOUT SEASON 9. BUT I LIVED. THEY CANNOT KILL HIM. IF THEY KILL HIM SHIT WILL GO DOWN, AND THAT’S PUTTING IT IN GOOD TERMS. I HAVE YET TO GO ON LEXIE’S TAG. I’M AVOIDING LEXIE’S TAG, AND CHYLER’S TAG. AND YET I HAVE TO UPDATE JORDAN SO I’M PROBABLY GOING TO HAVE TO GO TO THE TAGS ANYWAY…DAMMIT. Yes. No truer words have been spoken than those words right there. We’ve lived through Grey’s, Parkwood, we’re all freakin’ superhuman.

asylumnursejamie:

We all really have, You deserve it, you deserve it so much! I can understand why, honestly. I feel like I could laugh, cry, and scream all at the same time right now! I know, but still, eventually, I’m gonna have to..

It’s still weird…feeling this happy…but I like it. It’s a nice weird. I could understand why too, I kept telling myself to think of how many months she’s been waiting for me to say that and actually mean it. Yeah eventually….meaning when they’re in school for a few hours a day. Right now, after all you’ve been through with them, I don’t blame you for keeping them so close. 

remy-mcnally:

THIS IS VERY TRUE. I’LL DRINK A FEW CUPS OF TEA FIRST. I GUESS I’LL HAVE TO GO WITH THAT TOO, ESPECIALLY SINCE TODAY IS THE ANNIVERSARY OF LEXIE… You are a brave soul.. It must have been a rough night.

THERE YOU GO. THAT’S WHAT I’M STICKING TO UNTIL THE SEASON 10 PREMIERE. BUT FROM WHAT I KNOW THE GUY THAT PLAYS HIM RENEWED HIS CONTRACT…SO WE’LL HAVE TO SEE HOW THAT’S PLAYING OUT THERE..OH GOD, WHY DID YOU HAVE TO REMIND ME OF THAT….It was. But it’s okay. I lived. From the fact she was posting this morning I’m assuming Kaity lived too. 

asylumnursejamie:

I JUST CANT BUT I HAVE TO WATCH IT AGAIN BECAUSE IDK IT LOOKED SO WEIRD AND UNTRUSTWORTHY. WTF IS THE CHIEF.. Hahahahahahaha your poor mom and grandpa then! I was pissed at myself for forgetting to watch it last night, but I’m kinda glad I didn’t..

LET YOURSELF RECOVER FROM THE FIRST TIME FIRST. I DON’T KNOW. I JUST KNOW HE AIN’T DEAD UNTIL SOMEONE CALLS TIME OF DEATH. THAT’S WHAT I’M STICKING TO. Yeah…they can live with it. It was feelsy. I wouldn’t let myself forget…I wrote it down everywhere…

asylumnursejamie:

WAIT WHAT JUST HAPPENED WITH CRISTINA AND OWEN?!!? I AM SO CONFUSED HOW WHY WHAT WHERE WHEN HOW?! and all I can say is your poor grandparents..

I HAVE NO IDEA I WASN’T PAYING ATTENTION I THINK I WAS HYPERVENTILATING OVER EVERYTHING ELSE IN THAT PART. BUT I THINK THEY SORTED THEIR CRAP OUT. Well my grandma was asleep… it was my mother and my grandfather that really had to deal with it. I fell asleep…eventually…

asylumnursejamie:

It’s a good feeling, huh? It makes me so happy.. that you’re happy. I feel like I’ve waited forever to hear you say you’re happy. I was at home.. I just.. I can’t leave them.. It’s so hard. It’s like tearing my away from both of my arms. But I did miss you, and everyone else I love here.

A really good feeling. I think you’ve all waited forever to hear me say that. I told my mom that on Mother’s Day and I swear she literally burst into tears. Understandable, they’re your babies. I wouldn’t blame you for not being able to leave them. 

asylumnursejamie:

I’m too old for feels like this!! This is not okay. I can understand why, and I don’t even think that’s crazy, not even a little.

Get used to it! This is Shonda Rhimes we’re talking about here! It hurt. It all just hurts. It still hurts who am I kidding? Yeah, I think it was two hours. After the first hour though my mom sent me upstairs so I could yell to my walls and she and my grandpa could have some peace and quiet. 

asylumnursejamie:

That’s good, that’s really good.. I’m glad.. How’s Olivia? How’s you and her? I’ve missed so much..

I am too, I almost forgot what actually being happy felt like. She’s good. We’re good. Everything’s good. I’d say you missed a lot, but you were home with the babies weren’t you? That’s a good reason for missing a lot. 

asylumnursejamie:

im just watching it. i cant do this. 

Heart attack. That’s all I’m saying. Fucking heart attack. I was just about dead before it was over. I walked through the house for two hours yelling “I am not okay.” 

I’m still not okay after Grey’s last night, for the record. 

asylumnursejamie:

[smiles back, wiping away the small tear forming in her eye] How have you been, otherwise?

Otherwise….pretty good, I think. Some days are still better than others, but I think the new dosage of medication is doing what it’s supposed to.