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12
Sep

An explanation statement will follow immediately after this, so stay tuned to the main for it. But yes…there’s this. While this hurt like hell, I still have to thank Andrea and Sha for their help in this idea. Okay…one last thing; trigger warning for death. And here we go; 

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“I’ve got it. I’m going to leave now, I’ll call you when I get into New York, I promise. I’ll be fine, okay? Okay, I love you too.”

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28
Aug

ashley—-hansen:

Maybe I meant it more than the people here did.. You never know. How can you not think of me as a stupid bitch? That’s all I am. I just gave you up like it was nothing.. Then you went and tried to kill yourself.. so.. I don’t know. If you ask me, I think I’m a stupid bitch.

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Sure, sure, I believe that. Maybe you are a stupid bitch. A stupid, selfish, bitch, but if you want the honest-to-God truth, Ashley, I only think you’re a stupid,selfish bitch when I’m having a bad day. That’s the beauty of it though; I’m over it. I’m over you just giving me up like it was nothing, like I was nothing. I’m over wanting to kill myself, I’m over all of it. I might not be totally happy now, but I will be. 

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28
Aug

ashley—-hansen:

I didn’t mean i’m sorry as in it’ll fix everything.. I meant it as sorry for your loss… I don’t know what you really want me to say Ariana.. You probably don’t want to hear me say anything because you probably think of me as a stupid bitch. 

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I know how you meant it, you meant it in the same way everyone means it. I don’t want you to say anything, Ashley. There’s nothing to say. Now if I thought of you as a stupid bitch, I would’ve started an introduction that way. I don’t think you’re a stupid bitch. 

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28
Aug

ashley—-hansen:

I.. Oh… So you were sent here after we broke up…? And Brooke died? Oh my god.. I am so sorry.. 

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Yes and yes. Save the apologies, please. I’ve heard ‘I’m sorry’ more times than I can probably count. ‘I’m sorry’ doesn’t change anything, and it certainly doesn’t bring my sister back. 

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28
Aug

ashley—-hansen:

What are you doing here, Ariana?image

Well, let’s see; over a year ago I tried to kill myself, got myself thrown in here for that. 10-11 months, two more suicide attempts, and a depression diagnosis later, I recovered from my suicidal tendencies and apparently enough from the depression for them to let me out. Fast forward a little bit; I’m at home, everything’s fine and dandy, and then my girlfriend calls to tell me Brooke’s dead, sending me into a somewhat crippling depression which leads me to readmitting myself. 

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28
Aug

ashley—-hansen:

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You know, I was beginning to think getting struck by lightning might be less painful than all this. Seeing you just confirmed that my first thought was probably right. 

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28
Aug
  • Jamie: Okay, okay, I like that answer much much much better.. Hey, sometimes having some support from friends can really help.. Still? It's been quite a while since things happened.. That's frustrating. [smiles] Yes.. she will. No matter what. Mom loves you too. She really does. And, yes.. you definitely do that well.. if I say so myself. [rolls her eyes] Me too.. But then I think I'm crazy because I found so many awesome people here.
  • Ariana: I figured you would. I know...I should probably get out and find more friends. Yeah, still...frustrating is putting it lightly. [smiles softly.] I know...she does a pretty great job at being a mom. [grins in spite of herself.] Hey, you love me, and all the headaches I cause you. You're not crazy...in a way this place is good, even if it is a magnet for hell on earth.
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28
Aug
  • Jamie: Eventually? You should be doing that soon.. I mean, it might with the way you're feeling and such, you know? She hiding still? [sighs] Absolutely. And, good girl. You should always love your mother like that. But, yeah.. and I'm sure you give her quite a big headache some days.. [lays back as well, mimicking Ariana's motions] Do you ever wonder what would have happened if none of this happened and no one ever came here?
  • Ariana: Okay...then switch eventually with soon. Maybe...I never thought of it like that. I suppose. She doesn't really have much of a want to talk to me, still....but I mean, I'm giving her space. Still... [smiles] I always will....Mom was always there for me. Mom took care of me..Mom didn't walk out on me. I always love my mother like I do. Yeah...I'm good at giving parental figures headaches..it's a talent. [nods.] Sometimes I do.
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28
Aug
  • Jamie: [rolls her eyes, smiling] Hey, you need to get out more than, missy. You need to hang out with friends or something..How's Olivia by the way? Yeah, well, if some guy was treating your mother like dirt, I feel like you would be mega scary.. [shrugs] Hey.. it's a good quote to remember, if you ask me, personally. I like it. [smiles] Good.. I'm glad.. because you're not alone here. Ever.
  • Ariana: Yeah, yeah. I'll do that eventually. Good question...I don't know. [she smirks again] You're right, I would be. No one screws with my mother. Ever. The only one allowed to give my mother a major headache is me. [smiles.] I know that too. [she lets out a breath, laying back and carefully taking Caitlin with her.]
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28
Aug
  • Jamie: Well, like usual, your thoughts are genius. But, hey, I feel like if you really wanted to follow through on one of those threats, you'd be pretty damn scary.. [smiles and nods her head at the quote] Wise man, huh? But, he's right. It definitely goes on.. with or without us. [gives Ariana's shoulder a squeeze] Well.. you know I'm here to listen if you need to talk, right?
  • Ariana: [smirks for a minute] My thoughts only became genius because I don't do much but think. I probably would be, although just how scary would probably depend on the reason why I'd have to follow through on a threat. [nods] Yeah...I don't know why I always remember that quote...but hey. [nods again] I know. [she rests her head against Jamie's shoulder again] Trust me, I know.
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28
Aug
  • Jamie: Good girl.. And, I guess you have a serious point there.. I didn't think about it that way, I guess. But, still. It's nice that life goes on after tragedies. That.. makes me very happy. [sighs] Well, what don't you know, Ari? I mean.. what's going on in that brain of yours?
  • Ariana: That thought just entered my head. Because let's face it my threats usually are empty unless I have good reason for them not to be empty. Well, Robert Frost did once say 'In three words I can sum up everything I've learned about life; it goes on.' [sighs, shrugging] There's a lot of stuff I don't know. Right now? Not much..
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27
Aug
  • Jamie: [sighs, smiling slightly] I agree.. just remember.. you don't wanna scare the guy away.. Because we want to keep your mom as happy as possible. I feel like I owe her that much. So.. you're not okay, huh? You should trust your sister, Ari. She loves you.. and she wants you to be happy.. I think you should trust her. Even if she's only in a dream.. she'd never leave you when you need her
  • Ariana: I know, I know. I won't scare him off....but let's be realistic; if he's terrified of empty threats I'm making over five hours away...then...yeah. [shrugs] I wasn't....I don't know about now though. I know...I know...I do trust her..mostly. It's just....I don't know
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27
Aug
  • Jamie: Hey, who hasn't made stupid decisions? I mean, look at me.. I was into D-R-U-G-S for a LONG time as a teen. You're still smart. No matter what. [closes her eyes a moment, taking a deep breath] You and your mom especially. And, hey.. you might actually like him.. Hey, we would ALL hurt him if he hurt your mom.. But, I'm sure he knows.. Does she talk to you at all? Maybe she's trying to tell you something?
  • Ariana: Good point. Very good point. [sighs, giving a nod and a shrug.] Maybe I will...but still. The speech needs to be given. Whether he knows or not the speech needs to and will be given. The night before I seriously considered readmitting myself...she came to me in a dream, told me she was okay....but she also told me I had to stop kidding myself because I wasn't okay. There was one dream she was trying to say something but I woke myself up.
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27
Aug
  • Jamie: [smirks and laughs slightly] I guess that's true.. and hey, you've always been pretty smart, you know? [lets her free hand run through Lexie's hair, watching the little girl close her eyes again] Wow.. well.. yeah.. and your mom needs some happy.. she's had a lot of sad for right now.. I'm happy for her. She won't leave you alone? What's she been doing?
  • Ariana: Yeah...smart, but I have made some stupid decisions. That's something no one can deny. [she gives a small nod, letting out a breath.] Yeah. Happy's definitely something we all need. I just need to remember to call her later so I can give this new guy the whole 'hurt my mother in any way and I don't care if I'm locked in an insane asylum, I'll find a way to hurt you and make you pay for it' speech.I mean she does, but every now and then she'll come in my dreams. The first few nights after she died I dreamed about her every night. Then it was sporadic. Now it's more frequent.