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If this is about the message you left on main Kaity you have to give me time. I’m having trouble logging into the main and I’ve got some stuff to do before I can sit down and screw around with it.
Is being a sister hard? Jamie says that I’m Caitlin and Lexie’s sister, and sometimes Kade says I’m Greyson’s, but I’m not sure if that actually counts. Like you and Brooke grew up together and stuff, plus you have the same parents. Well I’d say you are for sure. Then you should talk to her!
It can be, sometimes. It counts, you guys might not be related by blood, but it still counts. Just because Brooke and I have the same parents and grew up together doesn’t mean you aren’t Greyson’s sister or Lexie and Caitlin’s sister because you didn’t grow up with them or have the same biological parents. I will, I’ll talk to her soon, I promise.

Oh… what.
What the fuck….I know, I just feel old ok? D:If he can put up with Brooke, let alone be happy with her, then hey, the kid’s got a talent of some sort. He must be crazy then. Bahahaha anyone and everyone?
SHIT. I would freak out omg. Awww boo :( I miss Nadrea when she leaves :( Hmmmmmm, what are her weaknesses right now?
Hehehe okay :) How do we make our blondes happy? Oooooooh, they could help eachother get/feel better somehow or something idk
Yeah. What the fuck is exactly right. But let’s just leave it there because I don’t want to talk about it in fear I’m going to get even more pissy…and I only have so much ice cream cake left. Don’t feel old hah, I felt weird actually making it…and it all started because I was making said cousin a CD.
Hah, yeah, there’s got to be some kind of talent there. Question just is what’s his secret to being around Brooke and still managing to keep a smile on his face. Haha, yes, anyone and everyone.
I woke up in a cold sweat, looked around, realized it was a dream, and then I was up the rest of the night. I had that dream about Rookie once too. I should probably take that as a sign I torture them too much. I’m sure she’ll be back soon, right now she’s just not feeling too great. Jordan’s…mm…Maya getting hurt, Matt getting hurt, the babies getting hurt, Jamie getting hurt, her nieces getting hurt, even Adam getting hurt…basically if someone she cares about is hurt, it’s going to freak her out, especially one of her babies, including Maya.
Mm, good question. I just…I want them to get back to where they were before Ashley got involved to be honest. Those real moments where Ariana didn’t treat her like a kid and Kylee didn’t treat her like she was going to break at any given moment, the ones you could just picture them sitting there…I miss those.
It must be because you’re sisters….? I wouldn’t know, but that’s what Maddie tells me it’s like. You can only hate them so much, but you still care about them. Wow…. you must be lucky then. See, Lorraine is close with her mom too, so you guys are like already friends.
Yeah, that’s it. I hate her sometimes, I swear I do, but at the end of the day…Brooke’s still my baby sister, and there’s still a part of me that loves her and wants to protect her when she needs protected and fix her when she needs fixed if I can. I like to say I am, yeah. Hah, I think I’d have to actually meet her first before that happens, but I see where you’re going.

Like favouriting/babying them kind of thing…? Hey now, I have a record collection on about 700. I don’t even think I own a CD player anymore though.
D’awwwww. Idk how to keep characters happy for long… but you better keep happy because he’s just so smiley and :3 by who? :o
I can completely seet hat happening…. Sage looming over you with a knife….. REE REE REE REE REE (horror movie sounds). Okay, if Nadrea is active, then you can have Matt look after them while you flush Jordan down the drain. If she’s not as active, then you can torture Rookie one way or another. That way it’s like “up to fate” or whatever…./Nadrea.
That’s what George is for (; Just Alex can’t para so it’s imaginary. :)
Good or bad feels? PS, will respond to Marissa and Kylee tomorrow; my muse is gone for them for the night :/
Try hitting her and then throwing her out kind of thing. You’re the one who asked if they still existed.
Ethan’s just…naturally happy. Kid fakes a drug addiction, and with how happy he is you’d probably believe he’s high but nope. He’s just naturally happy, even when he has to deal with Brooke. Eh, nameless people.
I had a dream it did once. I woke up in a cold sweat. Eh I don’t think Andrea’s going to be on for a few days, so Jordan’s out. I’ll figure out some way to torture Rookie.
Mm…good. They need happy good feels. That’s fine, take your time.
Well you must be close with her then. It’s okay, Brooke is just…. Brooke. I wouldn’t want to talk to her either. You’re really lucky then… You’re mom sounds really nice.
Yeah, we are pretty close. Yeah, Brooke is just…Brooke, isn’t she. She still worries me though, Brooke I mean. I am pretty lucky. I wouldn’t be here if it weren’t for my mom, and I’m not just saying that in the context of she did give birth to me. She is.

OKAY.
1. Enjoy my video. This was made a couple weeks ago, I ended up having to upload it to youtube to work, not Tumblr. Kiwis and I are going to attempt to “sing”/make dying whale noises similar to eachothers anthems, because we both have bilingual countries.
2. I have responded to: Kylee/Marissa, Kylee/Ariana, Cassidy/Kade, Cassidy/Maddie, Megan/George (I just posted it, Alex aha), and Kosha I won’t be replying to Amy because she’s dead and dead people can’t respond.
3. I will be back after practice; ~7:30pm. Replies then. :)
4. Ken….. we need to get this emotional trauma out somehow. Who do we take it out on?
I don’t know, right now I’m just in a bad mood and Grey’s feels aren’t helping…
So many choices…I don’t know…I honestly don’t know.
Oh… okay then… You didn’t talk to her much before? Why do you talk to her now? I don’t blame you….
No, no I did talk to her before. She and I were sorta close before I came here, now we’re closer than ever. I talk to her now because…well, she’s the only one I have left. My dad’s gone, Brooke doesn’t talk to me. All I’ve got is my mom.
Well what kind of things do you believe in? Oh… yeah I know it was Mother’s Day on the weekend… Being social isn’t always a bad things. Most people are. That is true…
Good question, let me get back to you on that. Yeah, it was, but I’ve been talking to her a lot more than usual even before Mother’s Day. I know, I’ve just chosen not to be lately..

Definitely.. but it seems to have gotten worse recently, you know? I’ll shoot her a text a little later.. Maybe she’ll answer. Who knows. Ethan’s a good enough guy though.. He’s a real gentleman. I never will give up on her either, I promise. Sometimes, being the big sister means walking away when you know you can’t do it for them, they have to do it themselves. I don’t either.
Yeah…yeah I know. There’s an idea. He is..I’ve only talked to him like once or twice…but I like him. He’s the kind of guy Brooke needs around. Good…good that makes me feel better. I’m starting to learn that…looks like I’m leaving this to you Jamie, as much as I don’t want to just…step back and watch from the sidelines..I think I have to.

I know.. but I just worry that Brooke’s isolating herself way too much.. I don’t know, it’s not healthy for someone to avoid humans as much as she is. I know you did, but don’t worry, because I haven’t. And, I’m doing my best to get your sister to a good place, just like you. You can’t fix her. You can’t save everyone. Trust me, I’ve tried. You did what you had to do, and I’m proud of you. Now, hopefully, your sister can follow in your footsteps.
I’ve worried about that since the day she got here…I honestly think Ethan’s the only one she maintains some kind of contact with…and I think it’s only because she has certain reasons. Good…good I’m glad someone hasn’t. I know…but I guess as her big sister there’s still part of me that still believes I can fix her, you know? I could always fix her before..I guess I’m still having a hard time realizing I can’t fix this. Thanks….I’m hoping she does. I don’t like seeing her like this.

I know you do. She’s a good woman, too, I like her. I think it’d be hard to reach out to Brooke though, especially with how she’s been acting towards your mother. I’m glad to hear that. Yeah, I haven’t talked to her in a long time either.. She doesn’t ever respond when I come to her door. You could, trust me, you could. It’s hard work, but it’s rewarding work.
She is, she definitely is. It is hard to reach out to Brooke, especially with the way she acts towards Mom…and everyone else but it seems Ethan half the time for that matter. I just kind of…gave up on her, as much as that hurts to admit. I tried, I tried to help her, I tried to be there for her…but in the end she was holding me back from recovery..and I can’t help her if I can’t help myself.

Good, you better have known that. She’s your mom, she loves you. Still, even if Brooke doesn’t want to talk to her.. at least she’s trying to reach out to you both. How’s Brooke, by the way? Yeah, it’s not easy to understand when you don’t have kids, but it’s.. nothing personal, at least. I’m glad it clicked, at least.
I know she does, and I love her too. I wouldn’t be here if it wasn’t for her. I don’t know if she’s reaching out to Brooke…but I do know if there were any cracks in the relationship I have with my mother..they’ve been fixed. Hah, wouldn’t know. I haven’t talked to Brooke in a few months. I know…I couldn’t handle kids…I feel some days I can barely handle helping Olivia with Greyson, and he’s not even mine. I am too.

OKAY. I FIND IT HARD TO RELAX AFTER THAT EPISODE. Yeah, she’s pretty good at it. Sometimes I think it’s because I’m like.. the oldie here and it just makes me feel better.
…POINT TAKEN. She is. But there’s nothing wrong with that either. Nothing wrong with that at all.
Not possible, dear, it’s a given. Yeah, she’ll definitely call sometime soon, because I know this conversation will make her so happy to just.. brag about her little girl. That’s what moms love to do. That’s true.. I’m just glad someone understands, while I know not all of the kids understand. But, they are really cute, aren’t they?!
Right, a given. I knew that. She’s been calling a couple times a week now, which I don’t mind at all, especially since I still think Brooke won’t talk to her. I admit, it took me a while to understand, but eventually it clicked. I think it was watching Olivia with Greyson that made it click, but still, it clicked. Yeah, they are.
